I felt the bullets enter me. They bunt, like God’s justice.

// I see life and it’s passing right before my eyes//

I’m filled with “What If”. A man shouldn’t be left with regrets/ but I’m. Lynn, Stensland, and Exley. I should have said sorry to Lynn. Tried give her a second chance. To Stensland I should of been a better partner to him. I shouldn’t have been so wilfully blind, yet I was. Exley, Lord knows what I can’t have or take what comfort he gives. It would be so easy to take what he giving, but I won’t.

//and the past is the past don’t regret it//

Exley rode with me to the hospital. I don’ know what was said, but his voice help me focus.

// I need to walk on the wire just to catch my breath, //

At Death’s door, I hesitate to knock. I know I’ll be welcomed, but not today. Maybe when I’m older.

// I don’t know how or where, but I’m going it’s all that I have left//

I left a part of me when I departed from L. A. A vision of blue stood there on the sidewalk. I was still looking at him when became a dot on the landscape.

// It don’ matter where it takes me long as I can keep this feeling running through my soul.

I don’t know if this is love. If it is, when it’s helped rebuild my life. I don’t believe in broken dreams anymore. I’m taking a big chance here. I want go back L. A. and track Exley down. He and I will have to talk.

// See a chance got to take it want meet my fate ’cause the last thing I ever wanted was to find out too late//

I’m here. Lurking in the shadows, watching all his moves. I see all the smiles he fakes. They don’t shine from the soul. Not the smile he gave me that came from a wellspring of warmth.

//no way out when you’re in it deeper than the night//

I could walk away. He’ll never know that he change my life. I see him turn. He’s seen me. He’s startled. When I see that light shining again in his eyes. I’m home.